From a young age I loved songs. I was singing everywhere, at home, in the car, in the bathroom. I knew from the outside all the songs I loved, even to their last word. All day, wherever I was, even at work sometimes – with headphones – I listened to my favorite tunes. The songs were an integral part of my daily life, I couldn’t imagine my life without them!
And yet I went through a phase in my life where I stopped singing, even listening to songs. None of my favorite tunes made me happy anymore, and while I didn’t realize it at the time, I was subconsciously missing out.
Then I realized that something was wrong … that I was not really happy.
And finally I parted, my life came to an essentially happy and happy “regularity” and my favorite songs, my favorite of the easy and the difficult, came back to life. The shocking thing is that my children also noticed it, which was young and had no strong memories of me singing, except for the children’s songs. And the awkward moment came when Constantine told me with his disarming sincerity – don’t be frightened I’ll tell you exactly as he said to me: “Mom used to be an ugly bitch and now you’ve become a gorgeous doll who sings almost all day and you are smiling. You look really happy . ” To clarify that the “unbelievably thick”of course he didn’t hear it from me, probably from school or some kid’s program on television. Unfortunately some of these programs are inappropriate and stereotypical…
How terrible my image in my child’s eyes has changed so much from the misery I experience!
And I thought they were pretending well enough so that my children would not understand how unhappy I was at my marriage. They did not know that in the last two years with their dad we were just roommates. They did not know that we were only talking to each other to meet the needs of the home and the children. And there comes another Konstantinos attack, which pierced me like an electric shock: “ Mom, I’ve seen on television and on the street that couples are hugging and kissing, why not with dad? “ . So I thought that because I was playing theater, wearing the mask of laughter and seeing me superficially happy, I was fooling them. What is the conclusion and why am I telling you all this?
Let’s not underestimate children, because they have the ability to understand everything, even what we don’t say in words, what they just feel!
Because their instincts are so strong at an early age that we can’t fool them with anything. When we are not well, they sense it and let us never tell them. When we are not happy in our marriage, they feel it and let us never fall in front of them! Children are capable of feeling, listening to things, feelings, and situations that we “smart” adults think we are capable of concealing and believe we are making fun of!
Our children are so wise, they have the ability to perceive when there is no true love, respect and communication between their mom and dad!